Wow, this is some real shit. Sorry about what happened to you, but let me stress this again if I wasn't clear. I am not promoting infidelity. Sleeping with one or more men outside of marriage is not ok. I am not proud of what I am I doing and I wish there was another way. I think about this every day. But I also think that life is damn too short and if we don’t take care of ourselves nobody will. I take a very responsible approach in this game trying to minimize impact as much as possible while also not living a miserable life. Had I divorced my husband, his life and my kid's would not have been any better. My life would have probably improved by giving myself the chance to pursue love without the burden of secrecy. My first priority is to keep my family intact. My second and newest wish is to also take care on my needs, on the side, with effort and as discreetly as possible. I had to give up in this process to many personal values. I know what I am, and I don't need to read mean comments to find out. I choose this for now, being utterly scared of what the future brings but also excited that for the first time in my life, I feel alive, loved, appreciated and cared for in a way I always needed. It makes me sad it's so complicated and for now, I am not brave enough to take a different road. I wish you love and peace.