Thanks for noticing it! I added the emphasis because while I couldn't picture myself in the bed with an older man, say the age he could be my father, I don't want to be a hypocrite and say that might not be an option. I actually brought even this up with my therapist because is really just the sex the boundary between admiration versus attraction? And then if we take sex out of the equation is my admiration more acceptable? So I understand why my entire story could be confusing as I'm actually in the process of trying to figure out my angle. Your response is thought -provoking so thanks for it, Jeff!