Thank you, S! Yes. I am still married to him. We've been together for 20 years now and I have never before been unfaithful. However, I have been for years, very sad. We have a kid together who we love dearly and who loves both parents equally. This affair has been healing for me. I am experiencing affection and intimacy which I longed for almost a lifetime. Please share with me whatever conclusions will reach. I am my most authentic self when writing here, so no one knows me better than my readers. Thank you!