I have openly expressed what I like and what I expect to receive in terms of romance. He was not willing to put in the effort.

If at first I felt that I was unworthy I came to learn that it’s not me, it’s him. He is lazy. He doesn’t want to be bothered with things that I tell him I like. He gets to choose what I should like. Or at least that’s what have been for ages.

For example, I don’t particularly enjoy oral sex. Don’t get me wrong. I don’t run away from it but don’t prefer it either. He, on the other hand, consideres that that’s how we should start each time.

Consequently, I have withdrawn from having sex because it felt staged.