I am glad that you are in a better place right now, Philippa! I cope for now investing my energy in spending time with my son and further shaping my career. With the remaining time I try to be as active as possible, and get some tension out. I run weekly and I go to therapy once a month. I know I have options and that keeps my self-confidence up, although I would probably (but never say never) cheat. Hugs!