Hey, thank you for sharing this. Sounds to me like a lifetime of abuse. I am sorry you went through this. You are not a horrible person at all. You set up boundaries, and although later you did. Every kind of relationship involves a give and take. If your parents only took and never gave anything in return, not even listening to your advice, then they don't deserve you. It's sad, but at the end of the day, your glass was full and it could not take anymore. It's ok. Process your grief and allow yourself to move on, free from anxiety. Sending you love!