Aww, a young lady ❤ it is getting better though. Once we can communicate, once they spend time with other people, once they get slightly more autonomous lifes gets easier. Those first two years were so tough that I am almost traumatized by the experience (not because of my son, for sure) but because we were so unprepared and our expectations were not grounded in reality. I would probably do it better the second time but I’m shit scared to try it again 😅